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[Oct. 2nd, 2007|11:07 am] |
I made a new journal. Mostly because half the people on my list prrrrrobably don't read these and I really hate being an annoyance. :P I update pretty often. So I suppose if you're one of the few that read, add it. :] hehe.
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) nagastolemybike
Byeee. |
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| × ugh. × |
[Sep. 24th, 2007|02:17 am] |
| [ | Feeling... |
| | *grumble* | ] |
| [ | Dancing to |
| | tmbg | ] |
What a royal BITCH. I hope she chokes and dies. *grumble*
I cannot stand people who do this shit. I don't care if I know you or not, you're a fucking cheat.
and so... are... YOU. |
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| -.- |
[Sep. 21st, 2007|07:15 am] |
| [ | Feeling... |
| |  happy/worried | ] |
| [ | Dancing to |
| | e6 | ] |
I got the shit scared out of me today. -.-
First off... Danny and Mike (my brothers that live here) came together in my mom's car to pick me up from work at 7. THEN... i get home... and theres a shit ton of people at my house... including my brother Jason who lives in Texas... i didn't see my mom.
I thought for sure she had died or something. I was SO fucking scared.
Turns out Jason just decided to surprise us with a visit...
BUT... this still leads me to worry even more, especially after everything i've been told/cautioned aboot, that she could go soon.
:[
I dunno what to think. |
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| × they call me Dr. Worm... × |
[Sep. 21st, 2007|01:32 am] |
| [ | Feeling... |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | Dancing to |
| | Kittye | ] |
NEVER again... will I go to bed at 6am when I have to be up by 1. -.- It wouldnt have been MUCH of a problem.. but I got called in early today so I had to wake up at noon... and holy fuck I'm tired as shit. We all know Travvy just can't work properly on 6 hours of shitty sleep. :[ |
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| × He got that special disease... that knocks the shit outta me... × |
[Sep. 20th, 2007|10:20 am] |
| [ | Feeling... |
| |  Nervous/excited | ] |
| [ | Dancing to |
| | Sarah Silverman | ] |
Today is my first day that I'll be working at Devonshire Veterinary Clinic. I'm a little nervous... but VERY happy. This is a really good job for someone like me. I get to wake up fairly late (gotta be up by 1pm), I get to have all night to myself (I get off at, I think, 8pm), and I get to work with puppies and kitties and animals alllll day! ^_^ I mean.... PART of my job is walking dogs and giving attention to kitties! :] How awesome is that? Pretty awesome, if you ask me. ^_^
I don't really mind wearing scrubs... it makes me feel like I have a real job. haha. I'm not sure why... it just seems more official... like I'm doing something important. :P Let me dream. hehe. Larry says I should get a stethoscope to wear just for show. I think it would be kinda cute. haha.
The only parts of the job that I know I'm going to hate are helping the vets Euthenize the animals (I have to hold the animals down while they do it :[ ) and cremating the animals (that i do on my own. D:) I'm sure there will be plenty of days where I call poor Matt bawling my eyes out and speaking incoherantly... but I guess it comes with the job. I just keep telling myself that I HAVE to do it to help the animals. They are in pain... and I'm helping to save them from a miserable life. *Shall probably end up reciting mantras every day* I'm sure I won't like seeing all the people crying either... it'll make me really sad... BUT... seeing all the happy people whose animals have gotten better will be really rewarding. I dig that kinda thing. :]
There are lots of perks to working there too. After working there six months I get two of my animals vaccinated for free each year and get free heart worm preventative. After that every animal of mine that I bring in is half off. That's REALLY good for me. It will save me a shit ton of money, too. Once I get moved I want to get a puppy... so I will probably just wait till I've been working there six months or so to get a puppy... that way I can be absolutely sure that he/she will have all of its immunizations and heart worm medicine. It will save me a lot of money and save my pets a lot of pain. :] After six months I also get paid holidays off. That is BITCHIN. Excellent! Also, after working there a year I get a week's paid vacation. WOO! That makes me super happy. hehe.
The job is only part time for now... but Mabel (the lady who hired me) says that they are adding two more exam rooms, another Veterinarian, and a bigger boarding area onto the clinic. After that, I will most likely be offered a full time position. That would be really good. :]
I'm so excited for this! :D |
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| × >.< × |
[Sep. 16th, 2007|02:08 pm] |
| [ | Feeling... |
| |  scared | ] |
| [ | Dancing to |
| | none. | ] |
aboot midnight last night i had to call an ambulance for my mother.
that was the most sinking feeling i've ever had. I've been scared enough lately.
I think she's okay... shes in indianapolis at the heart center now. I think she had a minor heart attack... the doctors werent very clear. She has to have surgery stuff again to put in another stent IF we are "lucky" and thats whats wrong.
*sigh*
I finally got a way to Warsaw... and now I don't know if I should go or not. I'm really no use here at home alone for however long it takes her to get better... but... i don't know if I'll feel right having a good time while my mom is hooked up to machines and laying in a hospital bed.
>.<
I hate that there is nothing i can do for her. |
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| × baaaby you're a drug! × |
[Sep. 14th, 2007|04:56 am] |
| [ | Feeling... |
| |  <3 | ] |
| [ | Dancing to |
| | Self | ] |
*twirls and dances* It feels nice to fall, fall, fall. I haven't felt so upbeat in awhile. I feel hopeful for this. I feel like it could really go somewhere... somewhere I've never been. I feel like it could be amazing. No...no... I'm sure it will. Everything seems so perfect. We click, you dig? We click like no one I've ever met. It's gonna be a trip and a roller coaster and I bet you I'm gonna love it more than I EVER did The Beast.
*runs in happy little circles* So awesome! |
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[Sep. 12th, 2007|03:55 pm] |
my fucking mom is planning her funeral...
how the fuck am i supposed to feel aboot this? |
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| × *giggle of happy girliness* × |
[Sep. 12th, 2007|12:12 am] |
| [ | Feeling... |
| | girly | ] |
| [ | Dancing to |
| | E6 | ] |
I got off the phone with Matt and then like... ten minutes later he called back just to say "I really want to kiss you right now, you pretty girl". *giggle* Sweetest thing anyone has done for me in an EXTREMELY long time. *dance* So now that I have heard his beautiful voice tell me goodnight... I am going to fall asleep with echoes in my head. *smiles*
Nini everyone. ^_^ |
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| × im still not that cool... im just not that great... × |
[Sep. 1st, 2007|01:01 pm] |
| [ | Feeling... |
| | tired/sore/sunburnt | ] |
| [ | Dancing to |
| | msi durp | ] |
MSI show last night was DUH... FANTASTIC. :] I'm really too tired/sore/sunburnt to sit at my computer and talk all aboot it... so i'll edit that in later. Just wanted to say "hey... that show rocked" |
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| × all across those silver feilds.... × |
[Aug. 30th, 2007|02:21 am] |
| [ | Feeling... |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | Dancing to |
| | Foxy Shazam! | ] |
I was looking through myspaces of my friends... and looking at their pictures and comments and such. I was incredibly bored, don't judge me. -.- Annnnyway... I noticed a theme. All of my friends have their little groups. Group, clique, circle... whatever you want to call it. They all have a core group of friends that hang out frequently and share little secrets and jokes and funnies. I realized... I don't have that. I have friends, yes. I'm certainly not bitching aboot a lack of friends here. I'm just... I want a group! I'm jealous and I'll admit it. Maybe not jealous... envious? Much like Ross said.. i dont know the difference between the two words. Same thing to me. As I was saying... my friends are scattered. They've all got busy lives with work, their core group, having fun. I have... games, my dog, my music, and this computer. I want to be a part of a group of friends that have jokes and laugh together and make real plans together. Every time I make plans with someone... they have to clear it with all their other people first. merff. It's not fair. I guess I'm just tired of spending the majority of my time alone.
Another thing thats been bothering me the past several days... being lonely. I miss having someone to care aboot, to worry aboot, to miss, to cuddle, and to return all those feelings. I think I'm starting to want a boy/girl friend again. *sigh* But I'm confused. I don't know if it's because I'm ready for it... or because I'm just lonely. I don't want to get into a relationship for the wrong reasons. I don't wanna do that to someone. merff. That said... I've been talking to a boy lately. He's really cool. We like a lot of the same things. He's funny, he's random, he's smart... and it doesnt hurt that he's absolutely ADORABLE. I can't out-right say that I like him yet... we've only been talking for a short period of time and I have yet to actually meet him. (I'm done with liking people before I meet them. Absolutely retarded and I generally end up hating them because I build false expectations) But he seems like a guy I could really dig. I have no clue what he thinks. I doubt it's anything like what I think. But whatever... ya know? It's not like I'd ever get the guts to say anything even if I DID end up liking him like that. bleh.
I'm gonna go rock out to some Foxy Shazam! for awhile. :] |
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| ×...wtf...× |
[Aug. 29th, 2007|08:09 pm] |
| [ | Feeling... |
| | confused | ] |
| [ | Dancing to |
| | T.a.T.u. | ] |
I was niiiice and asleep.. laying on the couch. I get woken up by my crazy mother yelling "Hello? Hello? Ugh...helloooooooo?! oh dammit" Into the TV REMOTE. Then she sets it down, starts to lay back again, and then sits up, picks up the tv remote AGAIN and says "Hello?" Finally seeing enough and finally realizing this wont end I look at her "Mom..." - "HELLO? Anyone there?" - "MOM!" - "Hold on!" - MOM! Thats the remote!" - "What?" - "Thats the remote... not the phone!" - Mom looks at the remote and then at me "Oh, you silly thing! Thats the remote. Why were you talking into the remote?" - "Mom... YOU were talking into the remote..." - "What? no.... you just handed it to me" - ".............go back to sleep." She then starts leaning toward me, extending her index finger... and she pokes me in the eye and says "You're so cute..." By that point i was so confused... i stood up, made her lay down, put her cover over her, and turned off the light. I then came into my room where I started writing this.
...she's fuckin losing it. >.< |
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| × You can always cover me with makeup × |
[Aug. 28th, 2007|10:46 pm] |
So the past three days have been HELL. Absolute and utter hell. Stomach aches, back aches, head aches, ear aches, sinus aches, runny nose, stuffy nose, throwing up, passing out, fever (at least the fever hasnt exceeded 101. I'm thankful), sore throat, losing my voice... Jesus it's been a whole medical journal of PAIN. Surprisingly, though... I've remained in an extremely kind mood. I think thats how to tell when I'm actually sick or when I'm just not feeling so well. When I'm actually sick.. I'm the nicest person ever. :P Anyway.. yeah... it's been shitty.
I'm feeling a bit better right now, after eating some yummy soup. :] So lets hope it stays this way. If I'm not better by tomorrow when I wake up, I'll prolly have moms take me to the doctor. I have insurance now, I might as well use it, ya know?
Merffff. Tried calling Rossy earlier while I was in the bath, but I guess he was busy. :[ He always always always helps me feel better aboot pretty much anything. :] He's my hero. |
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| × Mmmphh. × |
[Aug. 26th, 2007|01:43 am] |
| [ | Feeling... |
| |  calm | ] |
| [ | Dancing to |
| | Sarah Silverman | ] |
I suddenly feel a lot happier and a lot calmer. I wonder what caused that. ^_~
teehee. |
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| ×It's time for changing and cleansing everything... to forget your love. × |
[Aug. 23rd, 2007|03:31 pm] |
| [ | Feeling... |
| | tired | ] |
| [ | Dancing to |
| | KoRn | ] |
2.5 hours of sleep.
Got up.
Got dressed.
Went job hunting.
Ick.
Good news, though. I went to Panera Bread (coffee shop in town) to put in an application and I ran into Brandon Howie. Haven't seen that kid in awhile. Brandon was/is Aaron's best friend. I used to be pretty close with Julie, Brandon's girlfriend at the time (who is now his wife :D). When Aaron and I were dating, we all four hung out alllllll the freakin time. Cool kids, Brandon and Julie... anyway.... Brandon apparently works there. We talked for a sec and he asked if I was putting in an application. I told him I was... so he was like "ooh... lemme go get my manager for you. I'll put in a good word for ya." (Yay Brandon!) So Dan, the manager, came out and talked to me. He asked me a few questions and what not. Then he told me that he usually decides whether or not to hire people when he makes the schedule. When he doesnt have enough people to make a schedule, he hires someone new... sooooo... He told me he's making the schedule tomorrow and he'll be gone for the weekend... but he said when he gets back and finds out if he needs someone else, I'll be the first person he calls. YAY! He told me Brandon said a lot of good things aboot me and such and that he trusted Brandon. So I have a good chance at getting a job there. HUZZAH! Excited. Working in a coffee shop will be nice experience for when I want to own my own. :D yayayyay.
I tried to sleep when I got home... it didn't work out. I've tried a few times... I guess I'm just gonna wait till I pass out at my computer. >.<
In other news, I got a new pet today! His name is Barnaby and he's a fly... well.... his wings dont work so I guess he's a walk. *giggle* I found him in my kitchen... he couldn't fly and I felt sorry for him... so I put him in this little clear box thing with some banana, some turkey, a little capful of water, and a little capfull of koolaid. :] Oh, And I put a few leaves in there for him to climb on. teehee. I'm sure he'll die soon... but it's better that he gets food and such instead of starving to death. Flies only live like.. what... two days or something? Regardless... he's super cool. ^_^ *giggle*
In the past three days I have been asked on a date by three seperate guys. *sigh* I'm not sure what part of "I don't want a relationship AT ALL for a LONG while" people don't understand. ugh. One kid was this dude I went to high school with... we were in drama club together. I never cared much for the kid. He myspace messaged me. One was a friend I've had for a long time. I just told him plain and simple "I don't want a boyfriend." And he seemed fine with it. He asked in-person while a group of us were hanging out. The other was some 30 year old guy I've never met in my life. He's from some town around Anderson. He myspace messaged me, as well. Ugh. I mean, It's nice that he wasn't like MOST dudes who message me like "OMG UR LIEK SO SEXXY. OMG KAN WE BE FRENDS?! U HAVE NICE BOOBZ AND I LIEK UR EYBROWZ" *rolls eyes* But still... I clearly stated on my page that I wasn't AT ALL interested. People are retarded, I swear.
Robert informed me that Jordan (nasty) is currently dating a real life CRACKHEAD. haha I just thought that was amusing. Crazy crackheads... now he can get addicted to crack and throw shit at her for smokin' his drugzzz. lawlz.
And in closing... Maroon 5's "Wake Up Call" Is officially THE hardest song to download on the face of the earth. I've tried like... 20 different files on limewire... all of them are like "need more sources" BLAH BLAH. I downloaded one finally... and it's not even the right song. *grumble* I SHALL NOT GIVE UP!
Bai bai everyone. :] |
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| × Calling unprotected girls... Infected girls do it better! × |
[Aug. 19th, 2007|11:31 am] |
| [ | Feeling... |
| | calm | ] |
| [ | Dancing to |
| | e6 | ] |
Spent a few days with Jenny, Kerry, and Pookie again. That's always fun. Jen and Pookie picked me up. On the way to indy we saw this big home-made coffin next to someone's house. It looked like it was in the trash. :O So we stopped and went up to their door. We asked the dude if they were throwing it away, and if so, could we have it... and he was like "oh yeah totally.. take it". He helped us strap it to the trunk of Jen's car and we drove to indy with it. haha. Must have looked pretty odd... a bunch of girls in a car, dancing to MC Hammer and B52's with a wooden coffin strapped on our car. XD
Anyway yeah... it was a fun weekend. Played a lot of nintedo. I <3 SNES. :] We also all did each other's nails. That was fun. Mine are black with cute little skulls and crossbones on them. Frickin adorable. :] Kerry was at work or asleep most of the time... so I didn't see much of him. It was mostly me, jen, and pookie. We watched Sarah Silverman again... coz it never gets old. :P
That's really all thats been up. :] Got a job appointment thinger tomorrow. YAY! Hopefully I can get a job. *hopes*
My insurance went through, too... so that's awesome. It's doctor time. |
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| × Chocolate Pope... × |
[Aug. 15th, 2007|07:45 am] |
| [ | Feeling... |
| |  exhausted | ] |
| [ | Dancing to |
| | Electric Six | ] |
Ozzfest was yesterday/last night.... and omg.... it was even better than Family Values even though I liked the FV bands more. Ozzfest had a second stage.... which is always the more fun stage because its on flat ground. The lawn is slanted so moshing and crowdsurfing isnt as good. The second stage had bands the first half of the day and god I had so much fun. I found so much fucking pain... but it was great anyway. Crowdsurfing is one of my favorite things to do. It feels awesome. <3
Things that should have made my day bad but didnt:
× While crowdsurfing i got dropped into this huge moshpit, fell aboot five feet, landed on my back, and then some dude totally obliterated my happiness for a moment by "stepping" (i say "stepping" because it was halfway to being a stomp)on my stomach really hard.
× Broke the end digit of my pinkie during Hatebreed. Suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuucks and hurts.
× I smashed heads with some dude in a pit during Lamb of God which gave me a massive headache for a long while.
× Five different items came flying from the back of the lawn and hit me in the back of the head, including a giant peice of grass/dirt/gross.
× Got a really hard man's shoulder meets my cheek injury. That hurt. A lot.
× Someone's head met my left thigh when he fell in a moshpit. I'm a little bruised there now.
× My back got burnt during Family Values and then during Ozzfest I sweated off my sunscreen and got bubbles on my back. :O
× Greg was there. [[GROSS.]]
Anyway. Just yeah... yesterday was amazing. Seriously.... I think it was the single best day of my entire summer. My entire body hurts soooooooooo much right now you can't even imagine... but I'm sitting here thinking aboot it with a big ass smile on my face. :]
Kay... time to rest some more... my poor body is so broken. :O
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